First, lets begin this post with a big thank you! Thanks Grace for organising the jazz by the beach outing! It truly was great! Yes, the day started of raining. Yes it was gloomy. Yes there were five of us only( Grace, Bobby, Yvonne, Shiyu and me) But the presence of good friends, no matter the number, always brightens up the day. We played volleyball, went cycling, listened to good music and took lots of photos. Not to mention the banter. It gave me a warm tingly, feeling and I felt contented and happy. And this wouldn't have been possible without Grace, who came up with the idea in the first place.

I also learnt something yesterday. I was watching the sunset at the beach, and it hit me how bright red and glorious it was. I realized that this was because of the lack of clouds, the rain having cease only 2hrs before. I realized then how similar it was with life. We are all beset with storms in our lives. If we can only weather them, then maybe, just maybe,we might be treated to something spectacular and beautiful.

Second Issue:I went down to aikido on friday after a very long while. Been to busy with work and relatives to actually go down on fridays. No. less than three people told me that I have become bigger, one of them even warning me that I will soon have C cups if I'm not careful (to which I replied " I passed C a long time ago!".)

The thing is, have I really grown bigger? It puzzles me because I don't take any supplements and I make it a point to do Cardio, like running4-5km at least once, if not twice a week, and this is on top of aikido, which I go for once a week at least!. AND I barely get 6hrs of sleep, and I'm the kind who needs a lot more to rest. Also, atthe gym, I don't carry heavy weights. I don't really see the point.( I do however like the challenge of beating myself...of carrying a bit more than I did yesterday...to push myself that little bit further. That's one of the main reasons I even go in the first place.)And my weight hasn't really increase much...so do I really look bigger?

Issue 3: I'm getting nervous about the whole marriage thing. I don't want to get married. Not in the forseeable future, and if I can't find the right person, not ever. But had that discussion with my mum again and as usual,it left me a bit bemused ans uncomfortable.

Ah well...

I went to the night Safari with my relatives on Saturday. As my dad was feeling sick, and my mom was tired, it was left to me, the dutiful son, to be the tour guide on a cloudy evening, when the moon shimmered behind a translucent curtain.

The mist rising from the trees, and the use of oil filled torches, lent everything an ethereal cast, such that, even with all the microphones, and the khakis, I couldn’t help but be reminded of a gladiatorial arena.

While there, I saw this really cute girl from NUS. How do I know she was from NUS? I’ve seen her in school before, in the library, quite a few times. And I went over to ask some directions. I THINK she recognized me, and boy you should have seen the expression on her face…

On that note, let me clarify a few things:
1) I am NOT the father of the 7yr old kid whose hand I was holding, and the LADY with me was NOT my wife! She was my cousin-in-law holding my NIECE, whose brother’s hands I held.
2) On the off chance that you are reading this blog ( as impossible as it may be), yes, I do find you very, very cute J

On a happier note, I saw more animals on this one trip then on my previous 5 combined. Still the, most memorable thing I saw was the look on her face…

why must these sorta things ALWAYS happen to me!?!?! :P

Den Teufel innen zerstören

Sometimes, in the quiet moments in the night, or just before waking, I realize my flaws, and see my weaknesses. No one is a better, nor harsher, critic of myself than me. No one can be, for no one knows me better than myself, and while I can lie to the world, I cannot, and must not, lie to myslef.In life, everyone is beset with temptations, and I am no exception. What is important is whether you give in to it. Temptation and sin has a very beautiful face. I mean, no one would really be tempted by something ugly now would they?

And sin is respective. It depends on a persons on standard of morality. Soceity sets its own measure of a man's morality, but I feel that that is just a minimum standard that you have to achieve. A person must set their own levels, and try to achieve that. Set too high, and you risk giving up, but set too low, and you risk losing your own self worth. Either way, you've taken your first steps on the road to perdition. Not, maybe, in the eyes of your fellow man, but in your own. In the end, those are the only eyes that matter.

I didn't truly realise all this until, saturday, at night, while reading my friends blog about her life with her two babies. The love showed was a mirror that reflected my baser side. And I was not proud. I have a lot of inner demons. Not all off them have horns and breathe fire. I can't fight them with guns or swords. I need more wisdom then I have.

Den Teufel innen zerstören.... Destroy the devil inside

Wen flew back on Thursday. Went to see her off with Wendy, Huida, Xylia, Alvis and Lycia. Wen's parents and boyfriends, Chun(who incidentally will be going down to Melbourne with her!) was there too. First time meeting Chun, and he seemed like a really nice guy!
Good for you Wen! ;)

Donno when I'll see you again, but till whenever that is, be well and be happy...Always!
Seeing Xylia with Lycia and Alvis, with their eight month old daughter( she has twins... Kai, the boy, is at home) was so heartwarming! There seemed to be a joy that radiated out of them! Yes, they were tired, it was obvious, but they were so happy! They were smiling and happiness radiated out of them like a beacon. And it was infectious! I couldn't help but laugh at Lycia's antics( and Wendy's attempts at holding her! :P )

Hope Alvis,Xylia,Lycia and Kai have the best possible life!Hope Also that Alvis wins that Lucky draw that will take him to Brsbane with the family!
All the best!

Seeing them stirred something in me. Something that left a rather disturbing taste... a very Paternal taste. Not good!

Anyway, here's a song that I've fallen in love with.I love this song... I love the lyrics, I love the vocals, and I love the emotion. And it means a lot to me. It reminds me of a very special someone.

Best I Ever Had (Gray Sky Morning)
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever