Den Teufel innen zerstören

Sometimes, in the quiet moments in the night, or just before waking, I realize my flaws, and see my weaknesses. No one is a better, nor harsher, critic of myself than me. No one can be, for no one knows me better than myself, and while I can lie to the world, I cannot, and must not, lie to myslef.In life, everyone is beset with temptations, and I am no exception. What is important is whether you give in to it. Temptation and sin has a very beautiful face. I mean, no one would really be tempted by something ugly now would they?

And sin is respective. It depends on a persons on standard of morality. Soceity sets its own measure of a man's morality, but I feel that that is just a minimum standard that you have to achieve. A person must set their own levels, and try to achieve that. Set too high, and you risk giving up, but set too low, and you risk losing your own self worth. Either way, you've taken your first steps on the road to perdition. Not, maybe, in the eyes of your fellow man, but in your own. In the end, those are the only eyes that matter.

I didn't truly realise all this until, saturday, at night, while reading my friends blog about her life with her two babies. The love showed was a mirror that reflected my baser side. And I was not proud. I have a lot of inner demons. Not all off them have horns and breathe fire. I can't fight them with guns or swords. I need more wisdom then I have.

Den Teufel innen zerstören.... Destroy the devil inside