I'm no longer the person I used to be... but is this the person I want to be?

I don't know...

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings. At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

What's" Your Personality Type?

round 2 of pics...from letdar to marpha

http://nus.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13897&l=9df81&id=590800046

well ladies and gents...finally! some nepal photos are up.

To see them, click here:

http://nus.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13788&l=9afec&id=590800046

none of the photos have been touche up in anyway...mostly cos i dunno how. :p

So please feel free to critique:)

Had a long talk with the friend today, and everything has been fixed... all misunderstandings clarified. I couldn't believe how many unfortunate coincidences could occur in a row, one after another, in just the right order to make me wonder what I had done wrong.

It really was stunning.

Guess Mr Murphy was working overtime.

Glad its all resolved now...

I am pissed off.

I guess the few who even bother reading my blog would realize that already, since they know that thats the emotion most likely to make me update my blog but oh well... its the only thing that motivates me to overcome my natural aversion to work...besides, me being angry is about the most exciting thing that ever happens to me anyway.

I am upset at a particular friend. I think the person should know who he/she is after reading this entry(that is provided he/she even reads my blog).

The thing that has really upset me is... I donno what I did to upset my friend. It is obvious my friend is upset: most of my attempts at any form of contact with that person (phone or otherwise) has failed miserably, to the point i got ignored when i bumped into my friend in school.

I try my best not to hurt my friends, but hey... I'm not perfect. I expect my friends to know that and just tell me if i have done something that upsets them so that i don't do it again, or so that we can trash things out... and not just ignore me.

I thought we were closer than that... Hope that we are

Something happened today that somewhat upset me.

Someone I knew passed away, or rather, is passing away as I write.

Its not that I know this person very well; Although a familly friend, I have met her only once or twice.

What I do know is that she was a doctor, and for all intent and purposes, a darn good one. She had her clinic at gleneagles, and operated on my mum before...those were the times i met her.

And now, she is gone. And its not so much that she has gone, but the manner of her death that really bothers me.

You see, she had cancer. And she had it for the past 3 years. She had a lump, and when she went to get it treated at another doctor, they misdiagnosed her. And so here she is, lying in her hospital bed, her kidneys having failed, and one by one, her other organs following suit. The ventilator is gradually slowing, and her blood pressure is following suit. Once it stops, her brain will stop too.

Can you imagine the anguish her husband must be feeling? Standing and watching as the woman he has been with all these years slowly dies? To see it drawn out like that... . And the feeling of loneliness must be immense, especially as they have no children. Going back tonight, to a home that has suddenly become a house... I don't know if i would have the courage to face that.

Far worse is the fact that, the cancer she had, she has been diagnosing the very thing in others...that was in her area of specialization. I don't know why she didn't look at her own diagnosis, but I wish she had. If she had three years ago, maybe she would still be here now, and I wouldn't be typing this...

But "what ifs" are a dangerous road to take. Its a road from which escape is extremely hard, and a road i don't want to take again.

Guess all I can hope for is that the doctor that made the mistake has learnt from it. Its often hard to remember that they are human too, and being human, are also prone to mistakes. They are not God, that they can work miracles. And to expect them to do that is highly unfair on them. As long as they gave a treatment to the best of their abilities, and with due care and concern, we should accept whatever happens. They have a hard enough job as it is dealing with pain and death everyday, and they are ready targets for any emotions we may be feeling. Not an enviable life.

Lets not make it any harder for them.

All I can do now is pray. Pray that she doesn't feel any pain. Pray that she has found a better place. Pray that her husband can deal with the loneliness.

Pray that I never have to face what he has faced