Exams are finally over... This sem was a veritable disaster
My fault really
I think I chose a wrong module, and that really screwed up my life... :(

But its over
and a new chapter starts...a far more important, and infinitely more precious one....

think its called the holidays...
possibly my second last holiday before I start work.

Went to see off Faizhal yesterday, after my RC paper, which was another disaster... but I won't dwell on that, or my bloody carelessness!

Anyway, I went to see Faizhal off at the airport. I knew that chances are, I won't see him again, till August next year. He's a good guy, loud, funny with a great sense of humour and a terrific, booming laughter. He is always out to help a friend, and he will be missed.

The rest went to play pool after that, but I was too tired, and I didn't bring the home keys, and I knew my parents wouldn't sleep till I came home, and they had had a long week, so I left and came home.

Funny thing is, I couldn't sleep even after I came home. I watched soccer, than rugby and then read " The Hawk Eternal" by Gemmel. I was bone tired, but I just COULD NOT sleep.

Thing is, I have been confused these past few days. I feel that I lack purpose. I don't have an ambition, I don't know what I am doing with my life. I don't know who I am, nor what I want out of life.

Great... midlife crisis and I am not even 23 yet.

I hope God has plans for me... and I wish he would tell me if he did. But He works at his own time, and I will know when He feels the time is right. Still... I wish I knew.

On other note, I might leave on the 22nd or the 23rd of Dec. Yet to be decided. My cousin wants me to visit him in San Francisco, before going to Calgary. Still discussing...